Abortion

June 25th, 2012 6:00 pm by Awmtea Leo Khiangte

He thu ka chhiar apiang hian ka hnuk a ulh ziah! Tin, thil tam tak mi ngaihtuah tir bawk thin.

Hi, Mommy…

I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’m only a few weeks old. You’re going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I’ve got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don’t have it yet, but I will when I’m born. I’m going to be your only child, and you’ll call me your one and only. I’m going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We’ll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited; you couldn’t wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me!… He wasn’t happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don’t think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don’t think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay… but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That’s a sound I don’t like. It doesn’t make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I’m not sure if I do. It wasn’t right. You say he loves you… why would he hurt you? I don’t like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you’re so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I’m happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn’t talking right. He said he didn’t want you. I don’t know why, but that’s what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won’t let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don’t care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he’s bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn’t want us. He doesn’t like me. Why doesn’t he like me, Mommy?

You didn’t talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It’s been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven’t talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don’t you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don’t you do that when you’re awake, any more?

I’m 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren’t you proud of me? We’re going somewhere today, and it’s somewhere new. I’m excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you’re as excited as I am. I can’t wait.

Mommy, I’m getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don’t know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something’s going to happen soon. I’m really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe. I’m in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it’s called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don’t you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I’m really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don’t you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn’t I love you enough? Please say you’ll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don’t want to be here, I want you to love me again! I’m really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

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18 Responses to “Abortion”

  1. 1
    Dr Mahminga Sailo Says:

    A va runthlak ve le… ;-( Naute awt ngawih ngawih, pai/nei thei lo an awm laiin; thenkhatin an duh hun huna siam/pai theih anga ngaiin, an titla bawk si. An tihsual man an la phur ngei ang… (N) (Hrisel loh avanga titla erawh kan sel thei lo na’ngin..)

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  2. 2
    chhangteval Says:

    Fahraha piang tur te, fuke kim lova piang tur te, rilru lama rualban lova piang tur te hi chu tih tlak ngam a tha ka ti ve tlat :-)

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    sheldon Says:

    Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

    A lungchhiatthlak ;-(

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  4. 4
    chhangteval Says:

    #2 chhunzawmna, fahrah tur hi chu a ven theih lutuk, safe sex hman te, insum ten a dan theih. Mahse pianphung leh rualban lova an rawn paing tur erawh a ven lawk theih lovanga, hetiang anga an rawn pian dawn chuan an a chhungte leh amah tana tha zawk a ni tih pawm ngamin tih tlak kha a tha zawk, dan pawhin a phal a nia hetiang case hi chu.

    Hmanni chu facebook ah kan inhnial hrep tawh hemi chungchang hi, ka tui riau mai :-D

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  5. 5
    Kher Kher Says:

    Youtube ah ka en tawh chiang mai. En ve ru, naute hmel zawng zawng nen a touching leh zual. :-(

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  6. 6
    Mx Says:

    He thu hian rilru a khawih ngawt mai. Hmanah facebook ah thianten min lo tag a, ka hmuh apiangin eng eng emaw tum loh deuhin duh ai thui thil min ngaihtuah tir ziah mai :(

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  7. 7
    Kawhterenga Says:

    A lo ni maw ;-( Nau tihtlak hi chuti maia holam a lo nih loh hi le :-(

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    Awmtea Khiangte Says:

    Mi tam takin kan ngaihtuah phak loh naute dinhmun tur hi a rapthlak thin asin. Mihring an tling tawh a, tualthahna rapthlak tak a ni thei tlat

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    Jacka Pi Says:

    Chhangteval kawmen chuan thilmin hriatchhuah tir- Our Daily Bread a mi ni ta in ka hria- Harry chu kristian tha tak a ni a, a thawhna factory ah chuan a thawhpuite ho hi Pathian thu a hrilh fo thin a, anni lah chuan nuihza siam nan an hman sak mai mai a. Harry nupui chuan an fa pakhatna tur a pai mek a, an hlim dun nupa khawp mai. A hrin a lo hun a,an rin phak rual lohin an naute chu autistic a ni tlat mai! Harry thawhpui te lah chuan khawngaih tak a ruangin ‘Harry, i Pathian chuan autistic naute maw a pek che’ ti a lo nuihzat duh tawk an la awm zui leh nghal. Mahse Harry chhanna hi a bawn tawp, “He naute hi ka Pathianin min pe hi a lawmawm ka ti a ni,in naute atan pe ta che u se la, a khawngaihthlak dawn em mai” tiin

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  10. 10
    PKfanai Says:

    When i read your version in mi(sual).com, it really hurts me too.

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  11. 11
    Samuel Varte Says:

    :'( Very touching !

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  12. 12
    doc_lib Says:

    Nu nunna in naupai kha a tuar dawn anih te, naute kha piangsual sa ani tih hriat lawk te, pawngsual a vanga rai palh te leh nupa in karah chhangkhatna hmang reng chunga an rai palh chauh hian India dan pui chuan nau tih tlak hi a phal. Chumi ni lo a ti tla lui chu aw..India dan hmang pawn hrem theih anih tawk nak a laiin, Hrem hmunah ‘a sa lai district’ an chang ngei ang :-P

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  13. 13
    houdini Says:

    Pu PKfanai chu (#10) a rilru a lo hurt a ni maw? Pawi ve…

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  14. 14
    ninja Says:

    Et tu mom!

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    Charice_mizo Says:

    It makes me cry from inside..

    Nau tihtlak hi sawn ah hian a tam bik, mipain a mawhphurhna a hlen ngam lova, an pahniha an thil tihsual dun rah chu hmeichhia tel tir vekin amah chauha buaina tinreng hmachhawn turin a kalsana, hmeichhe derdep leh rilru no ve tak chuan retheihna leh harsatna kara pa tel lova nau pawm seilen chu zuam lovin an ti tla ta thin a ni.

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    Maisek Says:

    ka trap! ;-(

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  17. 17
    Awmtea Khiangte Says:

    @Charice mizo mipate dem vek erawh a fuh chiah lo maithei

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    malsta27 Says:

    (Y) (Y) ……………..

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